drunk circus

i dont care..........

2010-07-28T04:22:00.000-07:00

you suck. take that.

2010-07-28T03:56:00.000-07:00

FOR EVERYTHING'S THAT'S HOLY..... im 16 stop treating me like i dont know my responsibilities.. im not saying im old enough to live by myself... just stop treating me like an effin baby....
i know my responsibilities..
i ve prove to you that i can cope so many many many times....
i've what im suppose to do...
and what did i do wrong ....?...
im doing everything that you want me to do...

it's not that i did it... why are you putting it on me as well?.
stop nagging at me..
i know what im suppose to do... haven t i shown you that?.....
im not the same
im not what you think i will react.. if you actually tried to pay attention.. or even try to be closer... or try to understand me... you wouldnt need me to prove to you till im 40 then only you ll belive me....

is going to church wrong?.
is doing what i want ... wrong?.
is participating in ministries when i still can cope with my studies wrong?.,,,,

i can t live like this.. ive obeyed every word you asked me to do...
it shows no point of doing what s right.... when in the end of the day.. i dont get my part..
it's not like the things i want is whatever bad things a rebellious child would choose or.would want to do.. absolutely nothing about that... and i ve never thought it would be so hard... even with the background i grew up....

the people i should thank God most... that supported me to continue to strive on in the ministry.. is not you...how pathetic right?....

it is

overdue

2010-06-24T07:24:00.000-07:00

my babeees=).. loves loves loves=D

chirs,syg,ben,me and joel.

my fav pic.all cause of bryan...

hah.. okay. when was the last post?. few months back??. dang.. this blog is rotting inside out.. hah..

i just wanna say i miss crystaline,shannie and collete... .. my sygs=). heeemiss them seh....

nyah,nyah,nyah....

i dont know what to talk here.. it's been so long since i last updated.. shan just nudge me to update my blog.hahaha..

pick a day, pick a second,pick and hour,pick a month,pick a year...

hmmm currently.... have been pratcicing our dance performance with my friends.... practice was till 11 yesterday.. the happy thing about it was we improved. heh... but still alot to touch up.. heh...i hope we dont look that stupid on stage. if not it'll be just an embaressment...no offence clicks.. but you know i know what i mean,,

till then.. i'll update you guys about the next current happenings=).. sorry guys. heh.gtg now. nite,nite=)

i love today=)

2010-04-25T06:37:00.000-07:00

vishelle, hannah and me=)... one of the last few pics of the day

theY forced reutens into the girls toilet.. i didnt know until i finished peeing.. that's why im still in shock.. LOL

most pictures are still with hannah,joaane and vicky. will get it from them as soon as possible=)

people who made my day and explained how contented i am now are:

joaane chian,vicky,paul collin,chester and shannie!=)... it's been ages since i last saw them... so im pretty happy about it... and the extras are reutens,hannah and vishelle=). without them.. cs would have been a BORE... HAHAHA....

bumped into gabriel ong.. wah that fella.. can go dating but skipped church this morning.. imagine that.. aih......

and yeah.. according to my own view... ssi band was the best and sdj came as runner up for me during the band performance.. dang. sam could actually sing.. im surprise.. hahah i shouldnt under estimate him anymore.. LOL... sorry. i feel guilty now. heh....

til then.. catch ya later=)

outing=)

2010-03-17T09:00:00.000-07:00

okay. my plan to go out and catch a movie was succesful.. lol.
went out with izzat at the left and afiq on the right... and ekin...
had a fun time..=).

the plus points. i didnt spent a single cent. that fella(izzat) wont let me pay..
he fed me till i was so full . ate a plate of spegetti and pizza hut..
ate till my stomach was bloated.. met up with some guy from my school "tiger"
i dont remember his real name.. everyone calls him that..
found out he was working at jusco ..
he joined us for lunch..=)

after lunch went to the cinema=).
watch under the mountain.. man the show is worth watching.. seriously...
you,people should try watching it.your money would not be put to waste=)
i like the show,maybe cause of the suspens and the settings.....although the motive in the story was abit .. hmm what word do you call it..
lame?.... in malay we say."merepek"..
ah.. you get what i mean whe you watch the show.

hmm the other pictures are with izzat. will ask him to pass me tho photos soon.. =).

sessions sesssions sesssions

2010-03-15T02:53:00.000-07:00

pretty people speaks pretty ugly

2010-03-15T01:49:00.000-07:00

the group of people i hang out with in school=)

hm..what shall i say about him..he's zi ming. my fomer senior

erm, this pretty boy..everyone know who he is already... went out with him two months ago i think... with jessie and roy

me and yee long=)

and met up with my two darlings... miss them to the MAX.... met them i think 3 to 4 weeks ago. LOL.... wanted to post this up earlier... but hmm... didnt have the chance to come online..

E,J

J,V,E=)

V,E

THEM.....J,V... loveS

okay.haven't been blogging for such a long time.... like so long..

my blog is so rotten... owh gosh.. how arsefull is that..

anyway... eversince begining of the year. have been out a lot.. and i love it. heh... but im trying my best not to abuse the wider freedom im getting from my parents right now. heee....loving it.. i guess i did something right and im trusted more.that's good then

Aplus plus for me..heh

i have so much to say but yet blank...dont know where to begin with..

let's see.. netball season is up.. and i so want to WIN this year.. i love netball sangat,sangat,sangat=)...

netball improvement last friday..=). 6 goals in 5 minutes=). tee hee

It could have work out if you weren't so far

2010-03-06T04:35:00.000-08:00

midnight sun glows in the dark

2010-01-22T21:37:00.000-08:00

okay. don't ask me about the title.. it's random crap...

sigh...it pretty sucks when your best friend has a girlfriend/boyfriend and doesn't know how to balance things out.which leaves you completely abandon.. dammit.. thanks..

whatever then.. i'll go for some shopping to satisfy my unsatisfied self...

1234 tell me that you love me more...

2010-01-20T05:53:00.000-08:00

roy sent me home=)

this is iqa=). she's really really nice=)

iqa and krisela=)

cute aint she??. i know!

iqa and krisela again=)

iqa was learning guitar from krisela

jeremy lewis richard!. hahaha aka superman=) im louis lane btw. haha

this is the two beloved ppl i went out with, ying sin and yi han

look at yi han's CHEEKS!. hahhaa

okay... FINALLY.... i get to go online properly.. seriously.. i havent touch the comp in like ages poeple...... have been always using mobile... ugh..

anyway.. im thanful i get to go online now.. eventhough it's one hour.

okay.. let's see. what happen last week and this week....

1. went and spend time with jeremey=) and krisela for the last time .

2.sleepover at their place.. met iqa summers=).krisela's bff....

3. had fun. went to singgah selalu and walked around at dangabay till 11.

4.the nextday which is sun.got pissed off with gab..... (but i guess im okay now)

5.had to say goodbye to jeremy and krisela=(....

6.spend the whole afternoon with gab,roy,jeremy and mark in cs

7. watch old dogs.. godd show! watch it!

8.roy sent me home.

9. slept at one in the morning that night

10. woke up at 5 in the morning on monday.

11.freagging tired...

12.. forget to bring a few books on mon,tues and wednesday..

hmmm.. i think that's about it?. lol. i know. my life looks and sound so boring aint it?.... heh.

i can't remember.. it was so fun and it wwent by too fast.. that was like a summarization of the whole thing...

and owh yea.. before number one. i went out with yi han and ying sin the day before that.. got yi han an early birthday present=). weeee! she loves it.im happy=).

that's about it. i'll upload more nxt time.

darn it. stupid curfew.. .im 16 for goodness sake.

gawd. !

I wanted to kiss you...=x

2010-01-16T23:20:00.000-08:00

basket... shit.. dammit

2010-01-07T05:59:00.000-08:00

great... i only get a damn 15 min online..

the best thing about it.. im actually pissed cause of it

blardy...

and i can't belive im actually pissed cause of it.. hah...

how pathetic can i be man.....

you ass...

HELLO!=).. IM ANNOYED BY YOU.

2010-01-06T04:45:00.000-08:00

okay.. i dont really like making enemies.. or wanting to have any...
cause life's too short to make or have any..

but you're practically doing it really hard for me
damn you annoying bitch...
aren't you satisfied with what you have...
give other ppl a break man.....

gah... im wasting my time blogging about you...

okay. enough.. more about me now.

well just moved into bio science class...
im quite happy with the class. =).
im alright with everything.. just missing shafiqah.=(..
no one to crap nonsense with.. sigh..
hoping that she can somehow or whatever way chg to my class=)

oaky. im super happy yi han and ying sin is in the same class as me too=).

well. after all.. i don't think im shifting...
cause.. i kinda give up on that. plus i already have trouble waking up at 5..

can you belive it??. it's only the 3rd day of school and i've already missed the bus 3 times in a row...

i know.. im amazing.. and yes 3 times the charm. to make my parents flare up.
hah!.

well tht explains the one hour for internet every few times a week. now. ugh

seriously. if i wasnt having a n95 in my hands. i wouldnt be facebookingfor ages....

new year 2010

2010-01-01T05:15:00.000-08:00

check out the bag my bro bought for me.. hahah =) so hapyyy with the bag=) weee

alrite. new year. and im unofficially 16... great... form 4..not loking forward to that though.

had a wonderful barbeque dinner with family yesterday...

cant wat for tomorrow... gonna meet up with jc,stella and reuben..

owh wait that reminds me.. i dont have a present for reuben.. OWH SHUCKS... no way

sigh that fella.. dont know what to get for him..

that charlse also not helping. dont what kind of book he gave me..went to mph to check there was no such book called whatever name he told me...

ugh. no..

owh yeha plus my bro is going bacck tonight.. dang..=(.. sigh. coming back only on the 8th.. no way.=( ugh.

eyes red..

2009-12-29T06:01:00.000-08:00

okay. major heartache...

whatever. why dont i just stay in ulu tiram?.
if i dont get and the education department sent me to cemerlang. . that will be worst..
i wouldnt wanna risk it. it's a worse school.

so much about shifting school. getting all my false high hope.
and so much of working hard for it..

everything seems like a

major big ass..

pmr results and chirstmas eve dinner=)

2009-12-26T07:14:00.000-08:00

ainil,me,atiqah=)

me and atiqah

yi han,me and yingsin=)

just took out pmr results=) we passed!

busy talking

hahah noticed our bangs... ahah pakat.lol

Decision finally made.see you nxt year

2009-12-20T04:46:00.000-08:00

movie fanatic

2009-12-19T08:08:00.000-08:00

okay let's see.. so many movies to catch... i want i want i want!\

1.couple's retreat
2.avatar
3.sherlocks home(the main actor is sexy!)
4.chipmunks2
5.prince of persia
6.vampire assistant

well that 's the only thing i can remember... can't remember the others... shucks..

3 is the charm,2 is not the same

2009-12-19T07:41:00.000-08:00

okay. it's been a while..

sigh.pmr results are coming out.. not looking forward..

currently in a confused state...

i want to be in the worship team.. wasn't that what i was called for?.. i mean.. i just started.. what?. i stop now?... parents wants me off.
i dont want that.. yes i know it'll be hectic. but didnt you guys wanted me to be commited to a church. and now when i am. and when i want to serve, now you want me to drop out?? like what is that?

yes i know. but i can find my own transport. i know God somehow will help me through... everything looks impossible now...especially with next year....but He will provide,no?

God. help me. im putting all my trust in you.. whatever that may happen. i want it to be following your plan...and help me to be prepared that whatever lies ahead next year..

okay what else?... school...?. shifting next year.still in a in decisive state.. and time is ticking heh. 24th. how amusing can it be?.sigh. get a good result and it'll be for my parents. for chirstmas. haha lol. the good thing is. my brother would be here when i take my results yay=).

3rd problem?. .. re thinking about the idea of shifting school... it'll be crazy. shifting school to town means waking up 5 30 every moring and coming back at 3 to 3 30 everyday.. i dont asee tiem in anything else. what more when i join for netball?.it's form 4.soon form 5.. when everything is laid out..

everything looks impossible to be done. i didnt know it would be this hard. and.. how?

God. help me.im trusting in you.. i know you'll bring me through. and whatever happens i want to follow your way,your plan.....

evacuation

2009-12-13T05:37:00.000-08:00

why am i changing school?... well normally i amswer"i want a new enviroment"
true true true....
that's just a lazy answer.. cause. if i really think about it..
the truth is.i get bored easily...well not really bored..
but.. well. i like change everynow and then..

i want new friends to socialize with.
not that i want to ditch my old friends.. just want something new.. you know.
i want to do more..

okay that was just plain crap... i dont know what to write now. that was just something i was thinking just now.my brain was overflowing with reasons why i wanted to chg school
but now. when im infornt of the comp
HAH. blank...
sigh.

okay.i get over things "easily". and i thank God for that
i just want to move on... even if things cant be change even after trying.

somehow i feel like i've already given up. and let go.
seems like there's nothing more than mere friends between us.
i get to treat you like that and i feel much happier.
no more false hope.

maybe you going there is a good plan.
i thank God that he planned everything.
and whatever that happens. it'll be for my own good. even if i may not like it at that period of time.

i was thinking just now.randomly to myself about my wishes
well.. let's see
1.i wish i can laugh at all of this later in the future.
2.i wish i can laugh my ass of at how such a despo i was.
3.i wish i can get over this fella when i have a new enviroment nxt year
4. i wish i can be like vicky more. (jc understands what im saying.good engh alrdy)lol
5.i wish im over you.. and mean it.

okay. all that was just bullshit.. it's called crapping.
im not emo. i dont wanna be one... i dont want to be all drama...
just save it and throw it away...

okay let's see. im tired. did a whole lot of chores today..
extremely exhausted.

finally. I CANT wait to see michelle!. staying at her place. and if possible.. camwhore with her so that there will be picture to post here=) and remember=).

silly boy,silly boy.why you acting silly boy.

2009-12-11T02:51:00.001-08:00

random picture.(trying not to make my post wordy)

okay..i know i have been off for quite some time.. well cause lately i have been busy with extra chores.... my maid went back..

hah. don't ask why. long story...

anway.. went out the whole day yesterday with joel..met up with him in cs.. then headed to danga city mall to celebrate his friend's girlfriend's birthday.. i didnt see that coming though... but anyway. i didnt mind at all

celebrated at the bowling alley...=). the birthday girl was really pretty.. joel told me she's mixed.. half japanese... if im not wrong her name is marina.. heh. i guess i'll be seeing her next year..SIGS.. hah. well if she still in there next year.

so hung out with a few more dudes.i cant remember their names.one was yoga and the other marcus.. suprisingly it was really fun=).enjoyed it a lot. and i just realize i really miss bowling. used to go bowling every weekends with my family when my dad was a club member in austin hills

man it's only rm 2 per game!... thats crazily cheap.. but yeah. you do have to accept some minor parts of the bowling alley are having a little probs here and there. but other than that. me and joel LOVE the seats!. hahacan turn here and there. lol.

he won the highest of the day while i came in 2nd. heh. chey.. lol..i was abit rusty at the begining though. but haha. had supportive supporters behind.. hahah so it was all good.=)i wanna go bowling again.=)

ps:bowling is really fun. it's the matter of going with the RIGHT FRIENDS...then you'll have a blast.no questions asked=)

wished we stayed longer that day though... but it was suppose to be a movie day for me and joel.. so yeah.. went to cs after a game...went we reached there. wanted to watch zombie land but.. but the first show only start at 7.. gosh. how sad it was... so we were stuck indecisive...i wanted to go back to bowling though.. but.. pay taxi fare again?. i mean. we just got here. wanna turn back again. abit of waste of money rite?. but even if we bought another show.. we're not really looking forward to it. so it will result to waste too..

joel refused to decide.. so yeah... we ended up watching princess and the frog.. kind of a turn off though. heh. but okay i guess. the show abit messed up. heh... no comments about the show.. haha. idk. but i guess both of us are just a couple that are hard to be please and satisfied with a movie. haha.

then after the show.i left for piano class. dang. piano class again. dang. rushing./ so not funi wanna take my time. ugh.. so yeah

after that. nothing interesting. heh.sadly no pictures from that day. wasnt in a mood.. but now i regretted but anyway. next time then...

xoxo

eunice

stripes and checkers.

2009-12-07T05:43:00.000-08:00

kesayangan gua

2009-12-06T05:58:00.000-08:00

this is joaane chian..

i love her. she makes me smiel no matter what.. she makes my day no matter what...=).

i feel so happy when i see her..=).

the one thing no person i've ever met can do what she does is make you feel happy and cheer you up even though you didnt tell her anything about the problem... it's like as if your probs dont really matter or isnt that bad...

i dont know about you. but thats what she makes me feel.=). she's wonderful =)

she's matured yet childish..which is so cute.. haha getting addicted to her...hope it's good for health. haha LOL

love her....=)

xoxo

love you babe=)

shopping and roller coaster

2009-12-06T05:10:00.000-08:00

attended my cousin's wedding before the kl trip as well

okay. i have like plenty to talk about .. so much to say..went to kl last week. on wednesday. GOSH. journey started at 4 am..my dad is crazy.. haha. well can't blame him though. it take's four hours to reach kl from jaybee.

this is cause.. while me and my family plus two closest cousins who are from melacca goes shopping... he works.. HEH... nice eh?. even when we're spending. we're still producing money to cover up what we're spending. HA

lol.. but haha lucky dad.. my mum wont do that... heh. sobs. but anyway. happy that i manage to buy two amazing dress... each at rm25 only. man. i love kl... ..

gosh.. i love the kl trip so much.. like what more can i ask for.. the shopping was like crazy... stuff in kl are super cheap.. i manage to get the black leggings that looks like plastic...not glittery for only rm25. and the quality is the same like the one i saw in cs which is like rm 65.. LIKE GAWD!... looK AT THE FREAKING DIFFERENCE..

bought a disco dress haha. lol my dad say when hte lights hit me. i can shine it back. ahhaha . they wouldnt need a disco ball.. i'll just need to twirll in the middle of the dance floor. HAHA... and it was only for rm 25.. GOSH.. how freaking great is that..

to top it off. after shopping went to cosmo's wolrd in time square.sadly i didnt take any pics there.. cause. it was only me,my sis,and my younger cousin.. and i was lazy to bring my bag. i scared i would loose the camera or something....man.. the rides are crazy i tell you. forget about genting. that's like totally nothing.. i played a ride called dna mixer.. GAWd that was freaking crazy.. it mix you up and turns you around like some bottle shaker.. i ended up having red spot around my eyes after that.. cause the blood vessel..somthing like that...

hah. and as if that wasnt enough. to overflow my joy for the day.. HAHA... I manage to meet up with IVAN!.. i havent seen him like when?. last year camp?/.... GOSH. HE CAME ALL THE WAY TO TIME SQUARE.... i felt so happy.. but.. sadly we needed to rush .. cause. i left my sis and my cousin at the rides alone .. OPPS.

chit chat.. had a drink at old town..... sadly took one pic only using his phone. cause my camera wasnt with me.. ugh. that was prettty upsetting though.. but.. owh well what the heck.. metting up with him.. gosh.. i didnt know his face was that.. erm .....nice?. hahah lol...

gosh...whata day.

i'll upload some pics soon.unable to upload my pics. something's wrong with blogspot again. ish.

gay vampires.. on the way.

2009-11-29T07:04:00.000-08:00

okay going to watch new moon tomorrow.=) yay. heh. spend time with ci xin in jusco.. that wil be really nice=). a malay wedding i attended to last week...
the closest aunty and uncle... more like friends.. heh

and beloved mummy and daddy=).

nothing much recently.... other than that. i wanna watch ninja assasin.. looks so cool and the way shannie explained it.. heh. looks promising. hah...=)

riped jeans at 3 am

2009-11-26T04:15:00.000-08:00

i love the skirt=). it's green=).

peace!

ripped my jeans... happily at 3 am in the morning. happy with result as well=)

nothing much today had french fries and shark fin soup for lunch. heh

cant wait for this saturday... not cause of the wedding. but picking up my cousin!

so much to do with her...! tonnes of fun!. i love you ci xin!. hehe

she'll be here like for more than 1 week.. she's following me up to kl. to shop for chirsstmas.. LOVE IT BABy!. can't wait. woots!

kissing booth

2009-11-22T07:05:00.000-08:00

hahha. lol. the title has nothing to do with what.. im going to type here.. heh..

lol ala. sayang.tak yah nak muka muram.. smile sikit.. gua minta sikit... tak byk... ok kan?...gua. sayang byk sma lu. takyah lah nak risau-risau sangat..mwah!=)

i wanna delete this blog...

2009-11-17T07:37:00.000-08:00

man i seriously dont know what to blog about...

nothing.. i wanna upload some videos. but. heh. not for public i guess. sigh.
la la la. spm is up in less than twelve hours.. ooh..sadly. some of my closest friends are taking spm. and even though my pmr is like over.. i still cant spend time with them that much.. ugh. so im just freaggin wanting for this spm to be over.

sigh miss ying sin and yi han.. has been so long since i last saw them. need to get updates.. soon.

btw. i wished everyone who is taking spm...=). all the best=).

evelyn chew
joel lee
celine
chester
ivan
derwin
zi ming
chun shen
jojo
ee huay
nareetha

beautiful

2009-11-05T06:27:00.000-08:00

okay let's see... we always see people using this phrase"everyone is beautiful"

hmm. i dont know about you guys.. i dont really agree.. i dont know.. sometimes?.. still not really. i dont think so..

according to the dictionary beautiful=very attractive

form my perspective. i dont think everyone is beautiful.. ...i dont think everyone is beautiful..
have you ever come across this situation where you're friend comes across this guy or girl. and they tells you that the girl or guy is hot, good looking,etc... and at that moment you felt like praying for your friend's eyesight?.

yea. so you see my point.. you dont find that person is attractive....but people i came across one phrase in a book i read today... and somehow.. it quite an eye opener. it makes more sense to me..

it says...
everyone is beautiful TO someone.

everyone has different taste.. and yeah.. i guess the phrase"everyone is beautiful". wasnt completed..

=)

sigh...

2009-10-30T07:49:00.003-07:00

im starting to really loath this whole layout on my blog.. i wanna change i wanna change.. anyone help me?

ssigh...

2009-10-30T07:49:00.001-07:00

bored... 4th day of work

2009-10-29T03:22:00.000-07:00

sigh.. nothing much about today... went to work..
bob cooked for me again.. this time new dish... nasi belacan
quite nice actually. enjoyed it a lot=)

hmm.. other than that.. it' wasn't really crowded today.... very few... too few actually.. sigh.
heh.. get paid without doing a thing.. sounds nice.. haha

went to jusco yesterday. it was j card day.. and yes. as you can imagine. it was packed and crowded even though it was in the morning.. like gosh... heh. bought a jacket. haha my bro is so gonna be jealous.. hahah i cant wait to see his EYES. =) heee.usual price at rm59. i got it only at rm19 something.. im not sure. you guys do the maths.. it's 70% discount.=)

man. the price are freaking insane.. everyone was going crazie... hahha
i'll show you guys the jacket soon.

hmm... man. i think chessy is so good. till now he's still constantly buying me on fb. i mean. i gave up buying some of my pets cause other peoply keep on stealing them away form me.. like ugh. the price just increases you know?.. dang.... gos.. chessy so good. cause i dont really want any other owner.. hahah i like my owner a lot already...=) haha=)

racist baby

2009-10-27T06:16:00.000-07:00

hahah okay.. you know what i found out..

belive it or not......
im a racist baby!.. heheh..
really. i could not take dark skinned people... especially indians...(sorry no offence)
hahLol... REALLY.. when i was sick.. if my mum goes to an indian doctor.. i would literally cry!.. the doctor could not put a single finger on me... i would fret like crazy..

hehe.. kinda embarassing now.. haha. cause when pastor Rajan prayed for me when i was a baby at the altar...i cried all the way through out the whole prayer.. HAHAH....

i think i was really scrared of black people. hahha

awww but. seriously to my indian friends now.. no offence..=). i dont anymore.. haha. i make friends with a lot of dark skinned people nowadays.=). haha

i bet vicky is so going to laugh her ass off at this.. she must be agreeing with me... i bet she would have gave me a high five as well if we met each other when i was in my diapers..... LOL.....
ps:i miss you babe.=). see you soon

bang bang bang! ahhhhhh

2009-10-27T05:09:00.000-07:00

okay... let say. my stupid curiosity overwhelm me... .

i know i said i would never do this.. but.. yea like they say never say never..

owh God. help me to go through this.... i need to make it work.
in Jesus name i pray
amen.=)

*********!!!!

2009-10-25T07:10:00.000-07:00

okay.. so much of the peace for the night... ugh.... im super peeved at someone now... fortunately for that person. i chose not to fill up this post with all the curse i can bring out now..

ugh.... i can spell every thing right now.. ugh.. ahhh...

you make reading so boring... for your information.. you expect me to read stuff about how your mind works at what blah.. owh come on... for crying out loud... how you expect me to give any interest.....ugh

and forcing me to read the whole book in a day... im not like you..!. i don't read the way you do...
i wasnt born like you.. who can read books all day.... plus you dont even read fairy tales or storybook... you read educational stuff. and... all those.. facts stuff. im not YOU!... ugh!

okay im not mad just cause about books.. im mad cause.. it's becoming so pushy...talk so much about my freedom..ugh.... so fustrating...!

it's fresh.it's sweet... like who cares?.

2009-10-21T05:23:00.000-07:00

heh... im finally free. hee. sorry guys.. took longer for me to get here and blog something..
too carried away after pmr..

sigh.. i don't know whether im really happy though.. hmmm i guess it's barely started. sigh..
i wanna meet up with baby joanne and V. plus evelyn ofcorse..=)...

sigh....

hmm...so everything will just happen?. so tempting.. hard to resist.. bt then again.. thinking again... is it really worth it?.. i mean..is this all planned?. have it a little while cause theres a possible way to get away with it when you're done?.and let me deal with myself alone?huh....
i cant belive im starting to,.....
ugh.. FCK!. i had just let go.. and now ..

aihz..

random mind

2009-10-01T06:06:00.000-07:00

haha okay.. was looking through the latest updates on new moon.. then i came across a few pictures in the edward and bella website.

then i saw this... i was like what the heck is that fat bald guy doing??. like why are you spoiling the moment?. at that moment. i kinda felt like acting wasnt that cool anyway huh?. i mean. you cnt even hug the person... it's like whatever you do is not enough

it's to the extend where a fat guy has to push you from behind to make you stick with the other..gosh.. it must be that miserable.. like come on. get your hands off the the beautiful ass. lol
look at him..hmm expected more actually.i hope they'll work on the editing .. sigh.. wish he had a more beutiful chest.. hahah lol.. reuben agrees with me okay!?. so im not the only one...
then i saw bella(kristen stewart) came runnig....exactly like what it was written in the book

hah.. until i saw this pic.. then only i understood what the fat guy behind was for.. hahah.. had to hold edward(robert pattinson) form the big hit form bella.. hahah lol... she was practically running straight to him and throwing herself on him... literally she had to slam herself on him.. well in order to make it look like she was really desperate..

trying to stop him from entering into the light. as it is said in the book.. and.. where. edward was suppose to be really strong to withstand it.. plus.. it was suppose to be like a small nudge to him.... cause he's some really strong person in the novel

well... it's suppose to look like this..you know?. look down here.=). hahah.. ta da!!.. hahha cant wait to watch it though.=). have a date plan on.=). woots=). hoping it'll be a better movie this time..=D

talk about missing much

2009-10-01T04:37:00.000-07:00

sigh... pmr pmr. cme and go pls....

btw. good news. my bro is back=). heee yay. im not gonna let pmr stop me from spending time with my bro... then after pmr off to ipoh. shopping spree on the way up there. and food festival after that. hahha .

hmmmm skipping a lot of jamming sessions and youth.=(. sigh.. miss everyone.=(.

ps:miss you shannie.. =(. cnt wait to slack with you. lols. btw. im so left out.. i need explanations. lol. we'll have plenty of time=). weeee love you babe. wait for me.lol

this time baby,i'll be ...bulletproof

2009-09-21T05:27:00.000-07:00

hah.... easier said then done.. thats what shann said...

great..

i mean in a typical senario.. when you get hit more than thrice.. you would give up and get ur ass up and move on... i abhor the fact that i keep on falling for it...like man thrice is enough. you want a fourth?.

hah...is that all the natural way of the human life?. nver getting what you really want?..

ugh.

BIRTHDAY

2009-09-07T08:25:00.000-07:00

=). heee. gosh.love my birthday dinner.=). loves. spend the whole night with my family at one garden restaurant.=). woots. my fav restaurant.... nice place romantic hah. and so relaxing. sigh...
wished my bro was able to join me though.=(. sigh..
soon i guess.=)

hee let the pictures tell the story alright?=)blahahhhahah!

OMG!

2009-09-06T04:59:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG!. both of you... babes.. i love you=) gosh.. you guys. aww..

i would take forever to list out how much i love you guys... awww.. =). gosh.. it's like the most touching birthday ever... lols. hahha.. gosh. only both of you can make me that touch.. hahah lols

gosh ying sin and yi han.. i can't belive you went into all that trouble.. but oh my gosh!.. hahahah.. i feel like giving you guys a big hug.. serious.. at least until you cant breathe that is.. lolsxD.

gosh..now i really realize that im blessed with two such wonderful people... friends that i would go mad after...lols..i so thankGod for blessing both of you in my life.. i wouldnt have been laughing every single day like some mad person without you.. i would have been in depression if i didnt meet both of you.

again THANK YOU! I PROMISE I'LL UPDATE IT.. AND WILL NEVER ABANDONED IT . HAH!.i love it! it's perfect! thanks you thank you thank you.=)

gosh owh yea.. wai thing did for me cheesetarts with choc and fruit toppings.. gosh.. it's so pretty.. and she sent it to my house just now.. like God.. man... it's so sweet and ... gosh i'll take all night saying how goood these three are.. hahah lols...

ying sin,yi han,wai thing.. thank you=)loves.=)

gosh lord thank you so much. =)

blasted shitay

2009-09-05T07:07:00.000-07:00

bahaha.. wasted one... lols.
didnt really started my day with a really pleasing one though.. stuck in sutera cause got lost.. stuck there like for 2 hours wei. was really getting all fused up and pissed with the road.. lols...

but oh well. when i finnaly reach church and met gabbie there.. God. i felt so relive.. sadly arrived quite late so a couple of friends went alrdy.=(. gosh. thanks gabbie! loves.=). waited for me till i reach there.. gosh... loves.=)haha

then. straight away shoot to cs=) weheee..=) despo here people.. despo in going out..hahahxD.

but lala.. catch a movie with gabbie today.watch "i love you,beth cooper".. hahah oaky not bad.. very funny=). but alot of sensored parts though.. lols. but hahah laugh my ass of with gabbie.=) had lots of fun=).

then after that met with shannie and kong an.. chit chat for a while then met upi with paul and mark too... camwhore a little..

then after that. went to the concert at pkk building in sutera... woots met up with stella low.=) lols. then went all high and crazy.. well most of them did... i ddint really felt like it though... felt tired alrdy...cause i didnt had a good sleep the past few days. my sleeping time is like al over. and im feeling like a pig...... gosh... camwhore sessions eeee.. felt like biting her... gabbie and me=) loves.. blahah.. i cant belive he actually looks hot in this pic.haha. lucky me i guess=)but.. i look ugly....damn

=)

looking

2009-09-04T05:31:00.000-07:00

okay.. let's seee. haha. im so looking forward tomorrow=).

hmm but sigh.. i so wanna meet up with joanne,vicky and evelyn=(.... miss them a lot
ps:thanks babe=) love you much!=). and happy belated birthday evelyn=) ..

heee.i hope it works out this time.. hmmm. going to make some chocolate muffins now. i hope my friend will like it.=). don't really know what to give that fella though.. but hmm..=) we'll see.

wooots. gonna get my oreo mcflurry tomorrow.=) at last..=)gonna have a blast.=)

now school is back

2009-09-01T05:27:00.000-07:00

okay.. since school is back.. gosh.. i'll just continue my revisions back.. around 36 more days to pmr... gosh.

feel like fast forwarding to the exam day and just play... then after pmr ends.. i wana slow down the time.... hahaha.=).

well yea.. so waiting for that now... i want it to end.. cause pmr is just getting on my nerves.

hhaha. welll so now.. im like planning everything.. gosh. haha im so distracted.. lol.. gosh.. hmmm.. no eunice no... focus here.. study first. then later you can play all you want now.. plus it's just too early... anything can chg your plans later... gosh..

anyway. yea... btw. i manage to get 5 A and 1B in my pmr trials.... sigh.. history.. dang you.. one more question right would just make another A... sigh. i guess i should thank God for failures... if not i wont buck up.. and i would just take it for granted.. hmm well i guess it's okay.. i would read up more now. it'll just give me more drive to study more.=).

sigh. anyway. im waiting for my living skills now.. all waiting for that now. i hope i can pass with another one.... i so dont wanna drop too much... sigh wish me luck.=).

thats for all then

august pics

2009-08-29T07:44:00.001-07:00

sigh the editing is lousy. yes i know.. sigh. stupid laptop no photoscape... dang.

boored and sick holiday....

great fcker!

2009-08-28T22:24:00.000-07:00

yea.. you hear what i said...

everything just poof!... im so not in the mood now..

BORED BORED BORED... AND BOREDOM

2009-08-28T04:16:00.000-07:00

okay.. i so hope tomorrow will be fun... seriously. i really need something man..... please... desperate for something... something for me to remember about the hols...

cause if not.. this hols is just a stinky useless one...

come on. dont fail me now.. su're my only hope...well actually theres sun.. but. sat is the only time.. i dont rush in anything... so yea

fingers crossed.!. wish me luck.. this whole thing about stuck at home for one week is just as good as being quarantined.

pfft...

so yea.. hope hope hope is all im hoping and praying for

what a bummer

2009-08-28T02:27:00.000-07:00

damn.... just planned about going out.. all the risk taking and everything.. just poof.. like what the h**l.. so much for breaking the rules and creating my own fun for the hols.....

im damn upset now..yeah. just postponed.. yeah man. thanks very much.thanks for making my hols all the what better

ugh. i so want to go out.....=(. feel like crying now..

wanted to spend time. like crap lah.

i only have one word for all this crap

bullshit.!

=(

2009-08-28T00:38:00.000-07:00

i dont know why i feel so sad when i called you... it seems like you're drifting away.... i really dont want that..

owh crap!

2009-08-27T23:43:00.000-07:00

aihs.. crap lah... whats wrong with my laptop.. it's making funny noises.. while im burning the disc. like suddenly... is it cause it's too hot or something.. cause im freaking out here...

sugars!

2009-08-27T20:42:00.000-07:00

hey sugars!... please tell me which is you blog??.. cause im really confused hunneys.. especially vicky and evelyn..... hahah explanations please??. btw.. i miss you much.. i hope to see you soon.. take care guys.=)...

xoxo

oooh yea baby

2009-08-26T22:38:00.000-07:00

hahah lols.. had so much fun with benson and benroy.. even it was a short time.. but.. awww. im so gonna miss them more now..=(. sigh... i have to so visit them somehow after my pmr.=). wohoo.. hahah.. plan plan plans...=)

yay!

2009-08-26T00:13:00.001-07:00

OMG OMG OMG

benson is coming..=). yay. i cant wait to see him.. i havent seen him in like what i call pathetic ages...gosh..=)

cant wait.. he just called..coming to visit me with benroy..owh yea. it's been ages since i saw that fella too.. hahah lols..

i miss them much..=). come to think of it.. i miss them more now.. lols... they're so making my day..=). he he... cant wait...

cant wait.. counting the seconds..... lols=)...

updates are coming soon.....=)

just some pics

2009-08-25T22:27:00.000-07:00

damn.. lousy phone camera.. shitballs
went outing with family here's my dressing for the day.=) got my new tank top=)

hee.. still working on it..=).
ahah... i know i look sucky here. haha.was to free. playing around with joel's specs..

hmmmm?

2009-08-24T07:15:00.000-07:00

okay.. well that's over... done it... feell so much better after writing it all out... sorry guys.. all the *tut just came out.... sorry... just really pissed off.....

anyway...on the lighter side of things.. hehehe.. hols are on.... nail colours are on!.. wohoo...!.bought a new yellow nail colour.=).... wohoo... haha

well.. bought two pairs of new earings.. man, im so happy with it.. i only got them for rm2 per pair.. it's so nice. hahah.. i'll upload the pics soon..=)and bought 3 new bracelets...=). yay... happy about it.=)....

lalalalalallalalalalalalalaa..

nothing makes me happier for now..=).. hahah

im asked out on a date. lols... as if im allowed.. lols.. crap man..

haha anyway.. i miss my brother loads.... when are you coming back gor?..... im gonna wait for you... hahah=).. come to think of it.... im damn sweet alrdy.. hahah..

double face freak

2009-08-24T06:59:00.000-07:00

you damn double face freak.. you behave as if you know everything.. let me tell you something mr who thinks you know it all... you do not know anything... you're not only a double face.. you're a hypocrite... i dont even understand why ppl back you up.. i really dont seee the reasons you know.... serious.. you damn !....

yea.. you look innocent in photos... yea... whatever man.... but you're so not!. damn..... you think you're always right/.. you call me a play girl.? just becuase you some how saw me with a bunch of guys. hanging out with them.?.. OH YOUR BLOODY SHIT... check again.....!. you're the one three timing here and there.... and i can possibly say.. that what a nice venue you've picked...

and... plus.. i wasnt with a bunch of guys.... the last time i check.. i dont really socialize with most of them.... owh just shut up and check the freaking log in your eye... before you do anything.

i did my part.. but you certainly did not...it's easier said than done.. and please lah.. okay... behave the way your age is stated at least... cause you're certainly not...you're behaving like some bitchy 5 year old kid.... and you think you can just swing you mood as much at you want and throw them at ppl anytime you want everysingle time... you do know that other ppl has limitations of patience...
once or twice is enough.... . man... you know what.. i 've had it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. you hear me?. you're just a sad sickling bad influence in my life.. so i rather just delete you off. i dnt know how to forgive you.. i know i have to and blah what nots... man.. i serious cant seee any good.... nothing...let me re-think?. i think not.. serious... ugh....

what the hell is wrong with you.??... damn.i just cant seem to get enough talking bad about you.. you piss me off everytime.... man.. ugh... forgiving is the last thing in my mind.. serious... cause i've alrdy did that a hundred time.. but you dont seem to forgive me... (which i dont think i did any serious damage in the first place). ugh!/....

BITCH!

somewhat happy?

2009-08-23T05:34:00.000-07:00

hmmm..i guess today was okay..

lazed around.. felt like a pig.. came back from church then slept..till 2. then went to tuition...came back.. chat a little while with joel. then went back to sleep after that.. wake up around 7 plus... sigh..

i dont wanna fall sick again.. so not looking forward to that... wanna know what a "great" thing happen yesterday??.

okay.i was damn happy going out the whole day.. then dad bought tickets to watch G.i joe.. felt so happy.... then bam after shopping an effin headache had to blast my head during the movie... mind you the movie just started.. and yes.imangine how much torcer it was.. an action pack movie with an excruciating headache... damn.... what a nice combo.. thanks brain... not.

suffered like hell till i set beside mum, and she prayed for me... i felt better.. after that.. able to survive the movie without kicking anybody out of the cinema.....amazingly thanks to mum and dad to.. who massage my head a little while the movie.. i was actually able to watch the show.. hahaha.. quite nice.. so much action so much to seee. hahaha..=).. happy about the show.. but yea. joel was right.. the story line sucks.... well.. a little....

hmmm anyway...,... looking forward to more ps2 and more lazying around.. lols..

cant wait for saturday... =) hee

=D.. bigger****** put away.=)

2009-08-21T06:05:00.000-07:00

haha,,,this is just random,.

anyway good news.. i lost weight..=).. lols...im happy.. 44kg.=). wohoo.. touchdown.=). yea baby.. go off you fats!. lols.. now the hard part....

maintaining it........

wish me luck..

BLAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!! WOHOOO!

2009-08-21T05:53:00.000-07:00

WOHHOOOOO!... YEA! .. YEA!.... YEA BABY!.. TRIALS OVER. YEA YOU DAMN TRIALS!.. I AM SO DONE WITH YOU!.. LOLS.....

okay.. i feel so much better.. shout it out.. done it.. and over with it.. and last one to go.. the most irritating anoying thing i've ever met in my entire life... well. of course.. im only15. well.. not yet actually.. but owh you get me...

PMR!.. damn you.. man.. i'll just come and kill you down with the freaking knife i have in my hand..!.... you'll go down i tell you down.. !... and once im done.. gosh....hee hee...

haven't even kill the PMR.. already planning what to do after that.. hahaha lols.... so many plans.. so many excitment , BABY FREEDOM HERE I COME!... coming soon.... hahahaha lols..sleepovers, singapore,shopping,cinema,lots of lepaking.....

it'll be only a lucky thing if i really dont loose my mind once i gain freedom.. ahahahahha..

lols... i sound like some mad scientist.. lols..

WELLL THATS ACTUALLY WHAT IS GOING ON IN MY MIND..
hahah.. i know.. im total random...but... ahhaa.. i do mean it.. lols...
cant wait.. already planning with shannie... ohhhooooo hooo.. plans plans and much more..
hahahaha..
im going nuts now.. so dont mind me.. just let me bee... cause thats just what i wana be .. right now..
oohhhoooo hooo..=).. lalalallala

hmmm..last saturday

2009-08-14T05:53:00.000-07:00

=) just hanging out...after the friendship party
owh God.. shann said im posing?. it was hot alrite?. lol... ..
ka chak!. at last... first pic of me and shann.=).. happy=).. still up for more..=) rite shannie? lols

okay.. hmmm so let's say.. trials are coming soon.. i cant wait to go thorough it and get it done over with..... sigh.. feel super outdated.dang you pmr!...

i wana do what i wanna do..!

you know what??.. God. my bro is damn. good.. haha dreamt about him yesterday.. dreamt he came back.. and i was jumping like mad... hahahaha lol...

sigh... body ache now. .. hahah okay okay,its not cause of my bro alrite?. it's cause of the stupid P.E test my school had yesterday... now my whole upper body is pain like some&^$%^$@@!!... ugh...
.
anyway.. i dont know what to write about now...

some shit different day.. thats all..

=)..i am so so so happy right now.

2009-08-06T07:46:00.000-07:00

=).. super duper.. and all cause of my bro..=)..

gosh. it's the sweetest thing anyone has said about me that means so much to me..=)

i am so serious.. gosh.. okay.. the fact is..

to get my bro's compliment about me is quite hard..
most of the time i look up to my bro.. he's comments and ideas on things are one of the most valuble things i always treasure and find for...

he's straight forwardly blunt just the way i like it.
he shoots at you when it's lame.

i thank God i don t have those kind of "ah beng" brothers...
i love it that my bro have his own sense of style.
i love it that he has he's own unique way of thinking of things most of the time i nvr thought of.

i miss his witty jokes.
i miss playing like dumb asses in the mall

i remember the time when he pick me up when i fell off the bicyle head front infront of his friends without laughing at me but kept asking me whether i was okay.

i remember the first time where he asked me out to join him with his friends.
i remember my bro coaching me in badminton in our house compound
i remember my bro babysitting me wherever i went
i remember the night i went to he's room and sleep cause i was scared without his permission..
i remember he always tried to make me happy when i was in a bad or bored mood.

i remember we used to play shooting the cars behind of us... as if there was war when we we're on the highway..
i remember when i always stole his jacket to sleep at night when we're in the car on the highway... cause he's jacket ws big enough for me to make into a blanket..
i remember when we used to pull each others hair and play "masak-masak" at the back of the car.. and the whole car would be messy.

damn.... shit blogspot cant put up scanned pics.. ugh... someone help me out??=)?

cake for shafi=）

2009-08-04T06:32:00.000-07:00

okay,so today.. after school went to ying sin house together with yi han after school... stay back in her house and do the cake for shafi cause we're gonna bring it to her tomorrow.. it's kinda a last minute thing though...God. i hope she likes it.. dang...

anyway. so we did the cake.. following the recipie ying sin wrote down from somewhere...

after mixing...

when it was done baking.. i cut volunteered to cut the cake in half....=).

well.. okay.. thanks to my so great hands.... as you can see. i t was horrible...looks like some bloody shit.. dang...btw the red thingy on top is the strawberry jam... and yes i know.. it dosent look like a decent cake at all...

( you all knew what happen next.......................i freaked out)

well.. so.. thanks to ying sin and her dad... they manage to modify it a little here and there.. put the cream and nuts... and... who would ever thought about putting cornflakes as a deco?... i mean?. you ever seen a cake with cornflakes??.. well i never did.... hmmm brilliant minds i guess..

ayway.. yea..the cake looked better..well... it look decent enough for everyone eye's to see..no?.

i guess i have to polish up my skills more... damn lousy....

anyway.. yea.... for tomorrow.. im waiting...=).. shafi's birthday.

Happy birthday Shafiqah.....!.have a blessed one.=). and yes.. we know you want presents....=)..

??..

2009-08-01T07:22:00.000-07:00

hmm.. okay... so lets say.... my day was quite perfect... what i was looking for..=)
actually... it's the only day i look forward to everyweek....

anyway.. helped out in children church... with joel lee,benjamin,joel abraham and issac singh.

owh yea... and dear thomas.. so sweet... he's busy finding more piano sheets... but... OMG.. he manage to find "love me tender-elvis presley".. yes i know ... can you belive it.. haha.. my parents are liking the song. alot..=)....
thank you THOMAS!=).

well. he's busy finding for me the best score for "bella's lullaby-carter burwell".can't wait to hear it.... and.. i think one more sing. but i cant really remember..but damn.. im so happy..
owh yea.. before that.. owh shucks!. i lost all the scores from uncle chirs.. shit..everything... dang... what am i going to do now?. i hope i can get it tomorrow.. just asked joel or teacher stella to help me find it.....

well. . thanks to joel lee.. he said if he can't find it. he's willing to print out for me..awww. so sweet rite?. i know.. but.. haha.. as you know... the dumb side of me... stupid!. i didnt so through the songs.. cause i was super busy with the kids the moment i enter the kid's hall.. so.. i without the song title.. how is joel going to know what to print?. dang..

ps:shannie,do you remember the song you sang which was quite high?. uncle chirs said that song will be used next week sunday?.. i can't remember the title...text me alrite or something.. anything will do... asap.=).. THANKS=)

okay... im actually troubling so many people just for my own mistakes.. gosh.how useless can i be?... gosh sorry guys.=(.. i dont mean it.. but.. i cannot be asking uncle chirs tomorrow rite?... it's like less than 24 hours he passed me the sheets of lyrics and i lost it in less than an hour.?.. gosh... help me here please..=X.. thank you thank you so much. i owe you guys.

xoxo

hmmm?.=).

2009-07-30T06:24:00.000-07:00

hmm... been seriously bored during the week... dang... i kept on breaking fast.... friends keep on passing food to me...and when they do... i totally forget about fasting... lol... sigh... after explaining to them that i am.... i guess it didnt work... cuase.. they bring more food... but it wasnt on purpose though...

anyway.. preparing for trials... once finish then for pmr... cant wait for it to be over... so many things i wanna do..=) *giggles*

ps:awww. shanie.. dont think about it...aite?.ignore. i mean... they're not totally right about things..and yea.. hear God's opinion..not theirs....=). cheer up alrite?.

and.. btw.imissyou=). loves

when?.

2009-07-26T07:14:00.000-07:00

im waiting..=(... missing you.

so upset..i wana scream...8th..

2009-07-25T08:33:00.000-07:00

ok...first of all... didnt get to go for hillsongs concert in singapore... *sobs*

2nd... i wont be able to talk to reutens for 2 days. including tomorrow.

3rd... i lost my chance to talk with ivan on the phone cause.. my mum kept it else where... and i dont know where it is right now... darn it

4th... i realize that i never talk about chesy.. and now he's upset about it.... haha.. i didnt even know he comes to read my blog.. he read my blog secretly all this time and i never knew... till just now....awww.. why didint you leave a msg?..=(... sorry... but you're so sweet..=)thanks.

5th.. jc is worrying me... and i cant even contact her... sigh. i wish i could help... even if you just need a listener.. or someone to hear you out.

6th.....i had so many mosquito bites.. and im really hating it.. cause it will leave marks that like last for ages before it gets off my skin... it looks like scars damn it... urgh

7th....kakak's going back soon.... so sooon.. time is passing by.. urgh. .no... i so damn gonna cry like shit... not looking forward to it i tell you... been tearing too much the past few weeks.

just for laughs..xD

2009-07-25T08:10:00.000-07:00

awww crap!

2009-07-25T08:05:00.000-07:00

suck..

i cant get my handphone..stuck in my bed alone tonight.. with no one to call...just great..

man... i so want to talk to you.

i cant steal my hp back..

urgh,,, i so want to talk to you on the phone...

damn..... =(... no..

it's been so long since we last chat on the phone.. as in calls... sigh.. it's always been words on msn and text messages..

sigh.. man.. when are you coming down to jaybee?...

=(...
*sobs.*

my sugars... hahaha... (random)

2009-07-24T07:09:00.000-07:00

.....vicky... and joaane.=). they rock mee... hhahaha.

this are the beloved sisters i was talking about.=)evelyn on the right,vicky onthe left

the baby green... and... hmmm?... the vickykyky?.haha let me think of somethingfor her soon.

i saved both of them=)..hahah ceh... super man!!

okay... as you can all see. i was the one practically the most high that day..

joannennennenee,vickykyykyykyy,eunicenicenicenice...=).

awww. i cant find the pic i took with evelyn alone..=(.. awww. i got to go ask them.....aww..evelyn.. ..=(.... sobs... evelyn me want that pic.=(..

naked babies flying around

2009-07-24T06:24:00.000-07:00

okay.. the title has nothing to do with what im talking rite now...

just something random...a defination form my bro when i asked him what aere cupids..

he said it was those naked babies i saw in tv flying around shooting around..

just mention it to gab yesterday... he said it sounds so cool....whick i dont really understand why?..

hmmm... okay.. well.. it's been quite a while since i last blog...one week actually...

hmm... what should i update you guys about?.
owh yea... i succesfully mange to fast three days a row...
okay i know it dosent seem big.. but. haha.. all my life.. i never manage to do this.. cause as some of you know... those who came my house before.. haha. filled with a lot of food.. like some store... so yea... i mange to fast... =).

hmmm.... talk to gab yesterday... finally..=).. it's been so so so so long since i calledhim... i was kinda free.. so why not?.. called him up and chated a litlle while... well.. he said i wasnt distubing.. but the way he talk to me back was as if he's hinting me... ugh what ever.....
at least i was damn sweet to call him up... it's not like he calls me..
anyway.. i couldnt have blame him... when i called he was half anked on the bed going to fall sleep... i guess he was really tired that day..=).... well at least i talked to him.. happy..

hmm then around 10 plus at night ruetens called.. talked for 15 minutes.. then he was sent for duty to walk his dong and bring it for poo poo... i was like.. sigh.. okay... go ahead...
taught of calling him back after that... but i guess it was my so called lucky day....
mum pluged out the line early..no to mention it wasnt even 11 o clock...

felt sad... but.. owh well. ignored it .. and went watch more tv...till 12.. the went to bed.. talked alot of stuff with my kakak on bed.. till 3 plus in the moning.. i think it was 4 by the time i feel asleep..

well.. today??. haha so great.. went to school and found out my so damn "amazing friends".. didnt turn up... they skipped school.. and i was like some lost sick chinese girl in classs. i was like dang.... sigh.. anyway.. did the history pop quiz today... and dreaded my ass all the way to the hall to hear hear to some ceramah on maths.
i seriously couldnt be bothered about it..

geee i find my post are always so wordy... i guess i'll just stop for now...

bye

FOA

2009-07-18T06:16:00.000-07:00

.. ahahaha... lala..=).

happy today=)..God amnage to help me wake up early today.. lols.without alarm clock ya know?... haha. when i open my eyes was exactly the time i wanted to wake up.7:30am

so got up.. bathe.. dress up, make up.. then off iwent... before going there.join with my parents for breakfast.=).nice.. then after that.. reached at spastic hall.went in like some lost freak.. haha... but thank God.,darlyn pui ling found me and save me from feeling weird and lost.. lol.. thank you darlyn=).. ahha.. so laugh and talk till ... my deraly missed jc green baby arrived.. plus the two sisters i missed alot too.=)... evelyn and vicky=)..

haha.. like some kind of reunion... then sat together.. i played with jc's i-phone.. hahah i know im outdated.. but it was my first time.so fun... having my own fun.talked with jc and played her phone.=)
jc:you i miss you so so much!. i miss you alot.=(how have you been?
eunice:hahaha i know. lol.! joking joking. hahah.awww i miss you too !
so much.=).i've been okay=)..
ps:baby green i miss you so much.. you dont know how much i do..=).and i had a blast with you.i love you.=)

then... met up with some people .jc,vicky and evelyn's friends.so i just tag along with them....owh yea before that.. we camwhore alot. lol.. the pics are not with me.. i'll get them soon. as soon as vicky upload them=).

hahaha..=)spended every sec with them.. lol. then after that..i guess the 3 of them felt bored and hot.. so went out yam cha with their friends.. owh yea.. to met my former senior istefan koh... haha. didint know jc,ciky and evelyn knew him... so yea.. he drove us out.. hahaha=)

had a friggin nice time with all of them=)... kachak her and ther none stop.=).
=)
by the time came back.. just nice. in time to see pui ling's band=). not bad i guess=)..

then...sat there tilll it was done.

was trying to look for joaane or reutens to walk to church. but couldnt find them( no phone guys)

.then went to ccc youth... it was so kind of istefan to bring me there by his car.=). it was just dreadful if i had to walk there..so bit all three of them and istefan goodbye.=). i miss them so much... i didnt want to get out of the car actually.=(.. sigh... i love you guys.mwah!

then after that.. went to find shannie... then saw that they were having prayer meeting?... felt akward at first.. didnt know whether to join or not..then the uncle who passed by asked me to join.. so at first i was reluctant... but.. oh well.as you know.. im quite obedient hahaha ceh..haha... ok lah.. i just got my butt in that room lah quietly but ended up accidentally baging the door behind me.. and ha ha shannie notice me alrdy.. lol..

sat beside her.. felt akward though... but i just join them... i didnt know what else to do..
prayed as sincered as i could.. . then when suddenly shannie prayed for me.=)..
didnt know why.. especially when she prayed for my hurts and something something about that.. i cant remember....i broke down...(i mean cause... i mean i never told anyone about my hurts and and somehow. deep down i felt hurt for somereason..) so when she prayed for me.. i just couldnt help it . she too prayed for other things=).

ps:shannie thank you so much for praying for me.. and. yes im still waiting for him. opening my ears. and eyes.. lol.. i wana see and hear..=). and i promise you'll be the first person i tell.. hahaha..once i get it.=) lol

so it was really a fruitful prayer meeting... and.. somehow.. the atmosphere was different from how it normally used to... then prayed for jonathan... everyone was like so on fire ...=)..haha... im so happy God bless me with them... and they do influence me alot.=). lol....

then.. after prayer meeting.. chitty chat chat with naomi.. haha never talk so much with her. but haha. enjoyed it alot=)... while looking at shannie,gab tam,reutens,sanjit,joshua,and an indian guy(srry dont knw your name) practice.

had a very nice praise and worship... and the msg today was good.=)...

well it's all about that i guess for today=)... chitchat alot with shannie.. so much to talk to her.. seriously i couldnt stop.. haha.... hehe... gonna see her tomorrow.=).. lalala..

hmmmi guess thats for today=)...

i thank you Lord for answering every prayer.for the fruitfulday.every time of the day was fruitful .especially during youth service and prayer meeting.=).thank youLord.i love you

ps:reutens. sorry... my dad just reset the whole computer.i can't open msn messenger.. i have to download it again... shucks.. sorry..=(..

....sigh

2009-07-18T05:36:00.000-07:00

why??... why??.. darn it...

why the heck do i still feel hurt when i read the messages again
i thought i've already forgoten about it..
why do i still feel that way...
i tried my best to get away from it...
distracting myself with whatever that can keep myself busy..

but after today...
i guess i realize i cant keep it away anymore.
why cant i control what i think...
i mean?.. if i think that way.. it should happen that way right??..
if i say i can do it.. i can do it right?.

damn you.damn me.
i know there's no point in continuning
cuase i cant clap with one hand.
but i just cant seem to get over it....

it's easy to say give up
but eventhough you say it...
it dosent mean it'll be over that moment.

it's been so long... and i still cant get it over with...
**** if he's not the one..God send me someone...

i keep praying about it... i thought i finally forgotten about it...
and finally letting it go.?..

whats wrong...?.....

blah

2009-07-14T06:52:00.000-07:00

ugh.randomness takes me away..... alot...

born like that......

partly also because of too much influence...

hahaha.... but it's fun..

somehow i feel.. the more i grow up.. the more imature im behaving...( is that normal?)

or maybe im just mature enough to be imature.. hahaha.. ( i dont really understand what ppl mean when they say that)...( defination please anyone?)

owh crap.... trials are on 17 august.. here goes again.hope it ends soon....cant wait for it too pass..

i dont know what to write here... serious...

lalalalalchikakak boo boo..=)...
bala bala bee beee boooo!..

ps.:shannie... you make me happy..=).i dont know why... maybe cause im just happy for you.. lol... hahah... lalalala...talk to you soon.. go on line at night please?... i miss talking to you..=(...

MY FA BULOUS!

2009-07-12T05:31:00.000-07:00

I love her..and everyday i thank God.for blessing me with her...she rocks my world..i want her to be happy... i love her so much.. she knows me the best... she knows my worst too....(im serious..24/7 baby).. hahaha.. well... i just want her to let her know.. that no matter what happens... even if when time comes when she need me and i may not be there... i'll always love her and i would always support her... =).

even. with the time that is passing fast.. i hope to make as much memories before she goes.... dont wana waste it in tears or nonsense... but cherish every single second i have with her...im loving her. always.. and.. no matter where she may be.. even if the other side of the world... i'll always be there when she needs me... it's just an sms away... an msn away.... a call away.

so remember...i'll love you... no matter what life throws at you... i may not be the one who could give the best advice or words....but.. i'll be there to listen what you got to say...and be there for you=).

and the most of all i hope... is.. she will come to know the Lord.=).time will come
aMEN.=).

owh.. this sucks.........alot

2009-07-09T06:10:00.000-07:00

okay... how effin can things be? ... by 2012.sc and maths would be in bm again... its like so bullshit.. plus.. the there are like 14 000 new english teachers..and now... thwy are all doomed..

all their effort learning in english.. just went down the drain.... cause.. they may have to go back and study it all over again in bm...

i mean.. why the effin ppl want to change it.. so stupid i tell you.. it's just bullshit their doing...it's not like their bm are all good.. i mena.. most of the words in bm are actually from bm word... it's like so.. idiotic.. i find changing it back is just a total bullcrap.everyone has to do double work... which is so idiotic..

okay... what about the other ppl who are leaning.. the STUDENTS!... like.you expect to keep on changing.??~!!! F***kYOU LAH!.... why don't you try doing that... !.... what kind of so called "MODAL INSAN"... for the future... well.. as far as i know...it's not helping at all.. and most of them would just make out country more pathetic in the future.. man... be logical people...?.

this is so stupid..(*&%%^#%#!@#@!!!!!!

and i can gurantee you... only the malays would be going to national school.... most of them would rather be in private school or the tamil and chinese school......

o.o??

2009-07-04T08:31:00.000-07:00

miss miss missing............miss miss missing.........

built up my faith God...

2009-07-04T08:30:00.000-07:00

hmm??...=(

2009-07-03T06:15:00.000-07:00

what if i said im not ready for anything??....

what if i said i dont want anything?

what if..... i don t have anything

what if i dont like what you do

im just confused rite now....

im not ready......

last SUNDAY..

2009-06-30T07:28:00.000-07:00

ok.... this is the birthday girl=)... haha reutens.. enjoy the pics.=)...

this are the 3 G's=)arent they adorable?.. from right.geena,greg,and glen...

the family=)

take1

take2

group photo. take 1 group photo take 2

THE AFTER THAT.. I GAVE THEM CAM WHORING LESSONS.=)..

haha kakak joined in.=)

okay... dont ask me what he's doing.. cause i really dont know... i was just snapping the pics allthe way... LOL... this pic looks so funny!.. LOL

continue

2009-06-30T06:09:00.000-07:00

hhaha... sorry, guys... i had family probs.. so i had to went offline without even finishing my post... yup... it was really an emergency one...sigh

haha thanks guys...=)... the smaller one was me and my kakak made...she stole the strawberry from the bought one.. she wanted to make ours look nicer than than the bought one.LOL...

she was like shhhhh!.. dont tell anyone.. but i couldnt help my self but burst out laughing when my father took a peep at the cake.... HAHA...soo well.. the lucky one was my aunt... we did the cake for her... and it was the nicest one we ever did....=D..

we didnt give her straight away... after clearing up.. went to check out which dress should i wear..=)

haah... syarted camwhoring.. lOL.. eventhough i was rushing during then.. but.. owh it's so tempting...LOL...ok... so before that...ps: the one in red in this pic is the birthday aunt

well... then after that went to the wedding.. and guess what.. i didnt bring my camera.. owh just great?!... sigh... dinner was not bad.... had fun too..=)...

cut the story short.

came back... and celebrate..=)... heee...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!.... two cakes.=).. i guess she was happy=)

after that... my aunt and her kids wen to my mum's youngest sis's place.. before she went...=)... took this pic with GEENA.=).. pretty aint she?...reutens so gonna go gaga if he meets her..=)LOL...

2 days ago...

2009-06-28T08:20:00.000-07:00

haha okay.. i knw i have alot to post to make it up to people who actaully regularly come to my blog.. ahahaha.... srry... =)..

anyway..

last friday... wanted to go to school. but HAHA.. i missed the pathetic bus.. it left infront of me.. i was so close.. the syupid bus driver couldnt wait for me to close the gate..well.. to avoid troubling people around and avoid any other complications. i happilly skipped school.. haha... hey.. it wasnt my idea.. plus i didnt even ask to skip school...it was mum's idea.. LOL... as what other typical teenager would have done.. the answer was ALRITE.. right away without hesitation... hahah..

it was also cause if i went to school,i would only spent 2 hour there and then rush come back during recess time..

why?.

well.. cause at night had to attend to one of my relative's wedding. to be specific. it was my mum's cousin's wedding.dont really know them.but my mum does...so thats why i had to go... well pratically my mum's whole family was invited... so my aunt from kl came down with her kids too=)..

so... slack the whole day..=Dhappily and plus not to forget...it was also my aunt's birthday. the one who came down to jb.=)..so.. me and kakak did a cake for her..=) hahah

the cake i did...frist pic.. the 2nd pic is a cake bought at lavender... =).. comments please??.. thanks.

??...

2009-06-23T10:54:00.000-07:00

hmm i really dont know what to post up nowdays.... really.. it's all about school and stuff.
nothing really interesting.. i mean yea.. been hectic.. but i bet you guys dont wanna know what it is... nothing much really .. most of them are just some school stuff. and homeworks.. plus revision... thats kenda it IT....

REMINDER.
exam piano next friday.. wish me luck.pls pray for me.=) thanks.
3rd monthly test on 20th jully
percubaaan pmr on 10 august

hmmmmm what else?...

owh yea.. last sunday sat with reutens.. was suppose to sit with shannie too.. but hahah.. guess what.. she arrived late. so she couldnt join us...praise and worship was great=).. sermon was good i guess.?=)..
half way... reutens got all restless. really like ulat.. started playing with my hairband.(the one that looks like a phone chord)..... didnt know what to say to him... he tried on it..like a wrist thingy.. but it didnt work... it looked gayish.. haha.. but i didnt mention.. lazy to say anything.. partly also cause i was focusing on the sermon

then after service didnt know that parents were rushing.. i mean HEY I HAVE NO PHONE!. they expect me to know... plus they're suppose to know where i am.. im always there after service where else can i be..... got scolded in the car.... effin turn off my mood.. and i thought at the begining that i didnt do anything worng... ugh.. *^$^(&)_&%#W%$#^$!!!!

whatever...parents not letting me sit with any other people alrdy... just cause of that incident.. ugh.. im lazy to care alrdy...... cause of what happen i didnt wish my dad "happy father's day" at all.. i dont like to say soemthing when i dont mean it... it's useless plus it's fake and it's a lie.. HAHAH..i guess it's good in a way??. no?. lol.. i dont lie..=D.. haha just notice that..

anyway... went tuition as usual.almost slept in class.. till i sat with sue anne... owh.. not to mention.. somehow i feel we're like the dumb blondies there... we're always the one who would say "word?, har?... " everytime after the teacher gives her explanation...haha.. anyway all i know is that when i talk with her.. i cant stop talking.. haha...plus she kills the sleepyness away.. thank you.=). it really helps=).. man.. come to think of it.. im gonna miss you when you go to kl next year....=(...

sigh.. after that went home... slcaked... i think i called reutens....??. did i??. cant really remember... talked a while i guess..around there. bah.... monday nothing much...... tuesday... nothing much either...

well.. hmmm shanmugam tuition tomorrow.=).. can see santhiya,and cheow yi..=).. happy.=)..and... i guess i should get excited at the knowledge i will be getting tomorrow i guess??.. no?... man.. im a total nerd sometimes.....

yish... anyway.. till then i hope to post something more ineresting soon

ps:ivan.get well soon.takecare.=)

:reutens. UPDATE PLEASE.=)...

=(

2009-06-23T06:38:00.000-07:00

aww.. i really hope you get well soon..=(.. i really do..

when i said take care i was serious.. well.i really pray that you'll get better and well soon..
do take extra care.. don t want anything worse to happen...
well.. you'll be alrite i guess.. no?.

get well better soon alrtie?!

tke care.=\

tagged by ivan

2009-06-20T02:27:00.001-07:00

okay.. since im so free now.. i'll just do it then... plus it's form ivan.. =)i guess it's okay..i was number 5 ahha.. nice number=)

1. What have you been doing recently?
practicing my piano exam pieces

2. Do you ever turn your handphone off?
yes. have to.. thanks to MUM

3. What happened at 10am today?
erm... nothing.. i had to was the fish pond..

4. When did you last cry?
i dont know.. last week?.

5. Believe in fate/destiny?
yea.i think?

6. What do you want in life now?
more of God.. yeah!. hahah..and staright A's in pmr,plus.. i want pmr to be over and lepak and slack with friends. hahah cant wait..

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
umbrella

8. What's your favourite thing to do on bed?
hahah.. sleeep..

9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
bottoms?what?.. you need to know that too?..

10. What are the nicest things in your inbox?
nothing special...

11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
erm.no.. it just happens everytime.. naturally.which i dont mind sometimes... it cuts away the boredom.. haha...well.. no one can avoid complications...

12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
yea...my kakak's jeans

13. What was the last movie you caught?
terminator salvation

14. What are you proud of?
jesus chirst!.boo ya!

15. What does the oldest text msg in your inbox says and who is it from?
i can t remeber what it says.. but it's from joel.. it'e quite a long one..

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
cant remember

17. Do you have any nicknames?
yea..prawn, ET,shorty...i think that's about it... well i think ..

18. What does the newest text msg says and who is it from?
hmm cant remeber exactly but i think its"just yes to everything"from ivan..=D.. haha.you know what i mean .;)

19. What time did you slept last night?
9 30.. was bloody tired.. cause of the styupid fella

20. Are you currently happy?
erm... i guess i am.. but honestly... i dont really feel anything rite now

21. Who gives you the best advice?
gabriel tam and shannie. plus reutens... cause it's they are the ones i really talk to now.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
no..normally i spray in a bowl but ahah i wana try!it's so cool.. hahahahahah...

23. Who do you talked to on the phone last night?
who else.. reutens.=)

24. Is something bugging you right now?
yea.. this super long tag

25. Who is the last person that make you laugh?
ivan cause of his answers in this tag in his blog...=D

26. Do you like yourself?
hmmm..dont know?.. i like others more then myself.

27. You want $5 or $10?
hmmmm..can i have both?. that makes $15

28. Do you think you are stupid sometimes?
yea....

29. Who is your best best best friend?
hmmmm..haha.jesus?. lol.human then i guess it's yingsin and yi han

30. What will you do if you like that boy?
hmm.... it depends

31. Who are your favourite stars?
aaron johnson form angus thongs and perfect snogging.well the show was crap but.. OMG he's so hot

32. You hate your mother sometimes in some way
no... i dont hate her... i just get fustrated sometimes

33. Do you even stead before?
huh?..

34. What type of boy do you like?
hmm.. i dont know.. i dont belive it's fair to list down what your wants and dont wants for a person.well.. but i will probally will not ever date an ah beng fella

35. Now are you single/attached?
single

Pass this tag to 10 people!
1. celine
2. joaane chian
3. vicky chew
4. evelyn chew
5.wiwin sefriani
6. reutens
7. ying sin
8. yi han
9. yeuterng
10. hongyi

a. Would you date No.5?
no.. she's a girl

b. No.2 just got in a car crash. How do you react?
OMG!,

c. You see No.9 with your gf, what will you do?
erm nothing

d. You come home and your room has been ransacked by No.4.
hahahahaha... i'll just laugh

e. No.1 is acting weird
then something is wrong

f. No. 3 and 8 decide to give No. 10 a haircut
hahah.. may i join?

g. No. 7 just got tickets for her and ask you to go to a concert
alrite!

h. No.10 takes you to a bar
erm sorry no...=P.

=(

2009-06-18T20:59:00.000-07:00

in my friend's house now...

sigh.. didnt talk to that fella much yesterday...
actually it's not really considered talking though...

i wonder whats so nice about dota....
i see everyguy... okay... not everyguy... but most guys.. playing that game...
hmmm....

still feeling tired.. all cause of that person..
dang.. just realized i wont be able to go to youth tomorrow..=(..
i have that piano presentation thingy plus.. i just found out my mum doing the UME call meeting at my house... all the aunty and uncles are coming... ugh....
not really in a mood to behave well and put up a smile fo them

sigh..

dang.. i miss you.

okay! tb outing!

2009-06-17T19:24:00.000-07:00

okay... this is my beloved jie which i was talking all this time...=).hahah okay.. i was actually not allowed to go out and stuff. but owh she's an acception!.. hey... she came down like for 300 km.. how can i say no to her... i seriously couldnt afford to miss that rite?... man... i love you jie!..even though it was a litlle rushing... but yeah... i enjoyed every moment.=)

i think we only had around 4 hours plus together. only.. okay for real shoppers.. and those who hang out with friends.. you can imangine how rushing it was...5 hours sounds like much... but it's not.time passes real fast.. sadly.. but oh well.. at least it's something to cherish till the next time.=)

haha okay... jie notice that my nail colours were the same as my bra... hahah i just love the colour.. btw.. it was jie's idea to take a pic of this.. LOL... some how my hand there look a little cacated.. hahahmmm did you edit this pic jie??. somehow it looks like we put blusher.. but i we werent wearing any 0.0?
STRIKE A POST!
haha... i forgot whose idea this was.... but hahaha.. yea butt to butt... lol hmmm i dont know why.. but my smile reminds me of jc babygreen.haha..or is it vicky?.LOL..i guess it's cause of the cheek to cheeck thingy going on..haha

i know im loved.. this pic just explains it.. hahah

smile ,smile.=)

=D.... cheezz

yawns

2009-06-17T19:11:00.000-07:00

ok even though school is back... i still feel like it's the hols...i just cant accept the fact that is back to schoolstilll slacking a little..

worrying on the dead lines and whatever exams that are coming ahead... but still not budging... lol.

feeling guilty rite now for what im doing... but at the sAME time.. i still dont really want to move my ass.

.hahah..crap la....well i got to do what's got to do.....

*nervous about the piano exam on 3rd july... and the presentation this sat.. even though someone told me not to..i just cant help myself.. the only freagging thats gonna happen is only if i practice more... ugh....my body is like a zombie..

.gosh WAKE UP...!

till then... i hope to catch up with you guys.. soon.. i felt so outdated.. cause i think i had to read 3 long post in reutens blog,3 post from shannie too....sigh. well yea. basically.. i havent been online for the past 3 days... so yea i guess it explains why...

so yea.. i'll catch up with you guys soon..=) take care.=)

i think i ve fallen

2009-06-14T10:24:00.000-07:00

ahahhahahahahahahahahahaaha............i cant stop smilling..=)

schools back

2009-06-14T10:13:00.000-07:00

man.... fyi people.... i may not be blogging so often anymore....

sorry... i may be only online for may be even onec in two weeks... so yea.pmr is really bugging me..

upcoming events

1.piano exam
2.the sat evening thingy in church
3.PMR percubaan.. (owh shucks)
4.presentation next week for piano

lalal.. seems a little... but so little time left... i got to buck up...
everything is running fast... ugh... God help me...

btw.. thanks shann,gabmattam,reutens for encouraging me.and even reading my freaking blog.. hahah.. but yea.. i really do appreciatte it so much.. =).. thanks.

....

2009-06-13T04:47:00.000-07:00

sigh i feel a little down today....at the same time awesome.. lol...yea i know what you guys are thinking... like how is that possible?.. lol...

well.. let's say im sad about me and God stuff..everyday i askGod.. to let me see and hear him....
i want him in every corner and every part of my life..i want to feel Him everywhere i go... i want Him to use me.... no matter what it may be... i just want hear His voice.. and see visions. and whatsoever.. you name it.

today... sebastian talk about crying to God... it really touched me...but somehow... i feel that aren 't i crying alrdy?..where are you?.. yea have faith and all and what not's... but why can t i be sure He's really there.?..i want to hear His voice literally.. i have faith that you'll be there... and you're always there for me.. and what nots

but why cant i really be sure you're speaking to me... i know you're there.. but i want to hear you... ?.all i want is just you,jesus .. nothing else.to hear and to see

during prayer.. faught back my tears.. i just didnt feel like crying at that moment... why do i always cry?.everytime prayer i cry... why?.. i dont feel the use to cry.... i keep asking Him for it.i cry everytime.... but why cant i get it?..

will i ever get it?...

thats what i meant...

lalalal..=).

2009-06-12T06:58:00.000-07:00

haha.. what a nice way to end my hols=)..

today ying sin came by to do some history project..aha.. actually... to add this boring day..rocket came over..=)HAHAHA.

amazingly.. i was so relax... i mean.. i expected more stressed on myself.. but haha.. i guesss my body worked well with my brain..well this time it didnt betray me...=) well. no need to worries.. with the help smeone telling me not to worry... i guess it was okay..

okay..i think history project would be done soon.=).. thanks with the help from ying sin..=)happy about it.

wel.. someone had to go sleep cause was to tires or what not half way.. blahs... i know you just wanted to use my room=P..well.. ignored him and so i chated with yingsin about this and that.. updated each other about the hols and bla bla bla....

suddenly... the phone rang..

i was like owh shit.!. quickly ran to the phone.. picked it up..trying my best not to panic or anything...
then that was it

me:hello?
caller:is there room service?
me:huh?.
caller: ahahahahahah( was laughing his ass off)
me:put down the phone cause i recognize the laughther

i was like you bullshit..!.there i was.. almost freak out.. ran upstairs and wanted to beat him up..
there he was.. smilling as if he did no wrong..and burst out into laughther..ugh.. beat his stupid stomach.. which i think it was pain..LOL.. aww... a little won t hurt rite?.. haha...

anyway.. he deserve a little nudge..i got all anxious and stuff for nothing....
anyway played a little... couldnt sleep alrdy.. so he went do

i did my stuff he did his... ying sin started laughing when i told her about what happen...

he really made himself at home.. kinda happy about it... =).. cause i didnt want akwardness to come..yingsin felt so relax too..=) ahaha... nice though..

he played around with the archie comic on the sofa then suddenly started shouting that he hate pink.!..

rocket:why all pink wan?? yier.. i hate pink!..why so much pink everywhere?!
me:( turn back and look)then just read the other pages lah?
rocket:read alrdy.... haiyah.(dumped the book to one side..and sit up)

i guess he saw yingsin wearing pink... and almost everthing that she brought was pink..he was scared he offended her or something... but actually.. she didnt really notice that she was wearing pink or even cared what he just said

rocket:owh.!sorry.. i mean i dont like pink... i dont like the "pink" is not the pink your wearing
me:(huh?.. whts that suppose to mean?... haha colour shades)
yingsin:huh?( looked at her shirt to check again).owh.. hahah no it's okay..
me:(giggles)
rocket: no im serious.. sorry..it's not that kind of pink... the kind of pink im talking is different
yingsin:hahahaha... okay okay...

rocket was talking about another type of darker pink... which i don't think he really care what kind of pink though.... i think he dosen't like pink... ( as in any pink)

play alot more.. ying sin showed her skills on piano.. LOL.. i made her though.. hehe

well time flies quickly when you're having fun.. ... it was time to for rocket to go.... bid good bye... and spent the rest of my time with ying sin.. after that.. played a little congkak.. haha. i think she's loving the new game she just discoverd.. LOL.....

wel... thats about it i guess. and owh yea... it's been two days... no shouts and screams or scolding from my parents...hey.. i've been a good child i guess.? kinda .. haha...
im just trying my best not to make things worst... and i dont want to to have scolding all the time..trying to make up my promises to my parents.. .. i dont know why.but. i love you mummy and daddy=)..( gosh.. so random... but i do mean it.).

=)...

yesterday

2009-06-11T07:01:00.000-07:00

okay.. went out.. with celine jie today... went for a show randomly..

wtch a show called 'the bloom'

it was okay lah... 61/2 out of ten?.

then cam whored alot... i'll upload the pics next time.... cause it's with jie

i got to run...

srry but

nites..=)

got tagged by jc green baby

2009-06-11T06:23:00.000-07:00

by the way... i find this so *pathetic*.....sigh

1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?

erm...cheek?.

2.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?.

tired?.. i wanted to back to sleep again...=(

3.Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?

my kakak the one in my last post

.4.Would you consider yourself spoiled?

hmmm im not sure myself...

5.Will you ever donate blood?

yikes!... erm maybe if it's an emergency??..

6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?

like yea?..is it a crime?....

7.Do you want someone to be dead?

no... i prefer to live

8.What does your last text message say?

don t know i cant remember.. my sucky phone is with my mum.. im grounded..%$@*

9.What are you thinking right now?

about my handphone you just remind me about?.. thanks to you i have to mourn again..ugh

10.Do you want someone to be with you now?

yea...

11.What was the time you went to bed last night?

i don t know?. you expect me to check with the lights off?.and my eyes close?

12.Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?

i didnt buy it.joshua boey gave it to me

13.Is someone on your mind right now?

yeah.

14.Who was the last person who text you?

a rocket!

TEN lucky person to do this quiz

1.reutens

2.esther gan

3.joanne gaw

4.shannie..( which i don't thnk she will do..lol.)

5.celine jie

6.ying sin

7.yi han

8.ivan=)

9.nevell

10.???

.15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with?

no one

16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?

female

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together, would it be a good?

haha it'll be akward though...so weird

18. What is no.1 studying about?

don t know.. i haven't ask

19. when was the last time you chatted with them?

1.just a few hours ago

2.last sunday

3.not sure.. last sunday i think?

4.haha through my chat box..is that counted?.

5.yesterday.went out with her

6.last week through smsing

7.on msn just now

8.two days ago on msn

9.dont know cant remember

10???

.20. Is no. 4 single?

yeah.. but not available

.21. Say something about no.2

i call her numbass 1.she's my really good friend.she goes to convent.she talks.she keeps quiet.she's always busy.i miss her alot even when i see her

.22.What do you think about no. 2 and no. 6 being together?

hahah as friends yea...i would love it.=)

23. Describe no.9.

hmmm.... a girl.goes to convent.reutens's god sis.she's a tomboy which she admitted.she's fun to talk to

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight?

owh crap.! i wont let them happen..if they do.. i'll do my best to get things back and right

25. Do you like no.8?

yeah... =)

2 days ago..

2009-06-08T09:06:00.000-07:00

my current favourite pic.

okay.. actually i was suppose to blog this last saturday......

heee sorry.. kept on forgetting to blog about this...

hmm well okay... went to jusco the other day... i was so so happy..i don't remember shopping and taking my own sweet time and not have to rush here and there... =)
went out with my so called sis/bestie. as you can put it that way i guess?..=)..ahahaha.
we do almost everything together..
i talk to her every night before i sleep,we do chores together,we go high together,we spent 24/7 together....
im so happy.. lalalalalalala...=) haha

here's some pics we took the other day at esprit.=)

this is what i call smile to the camera..=)

will i ever get it?.

2009-06-07T03:09:00.000-07:00

faith

2009-06-07T02:57:00.000-07:00

erm....

i dont wana fake anything here... but to be honest.. im still not sure He's really there...
i really really want to hear Him speak to me...
somehow.. i think i felt somehow... or maybe it was me thinking to myself...
well... this week had been a hectic week..somehow the word faith keeps on shuving into my face... everywhere i read. it's about faith... today's sermon was about faith.... rocket talk to me a day before was about faith again....

i felt in a way... im not sure... but i think He said this..
"i love you,have faith and i will give eveything to you".

i will.....

ATTENTION TO ALL TWILIGHT SAGA FANS!

2009-06-04T02:14:00.000-07:00

okay... OFFICIAL NEW MOON TRAILERr is out!...

the released of the movie on theaters will be on 20th of november 2009...

plus..

good news... taylor launter who acts as jacob.. is still acting in this movie.. yay!.. i dont want any of the actors change.. by the way.. his so cuuuteee!..=)

here's the link.enjoy=)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KYBF3HKzrmE

i love you,don't give up

2009-06-01T08:40:00.000-07:00

talked to rocket last morning... had a really good talk..
then from didnt know how... then started talking about God..
i guess God plan that already.. rocket told me how God change his life one by one
and i was talking how i used to be like him and what not..

and i dont know how it all started.. we talked more and i started crying
i guess i teared cause i was jealous that he could feel God's presence and how bless he is by God
cause i wanted to feel that way so badly... at the same i didnt know why i was crying..
cause i've always been like that numb by the spirit after i slowly turn my back on God 2 years ago...
i teared so many times.. but most of the time i feel God dosen't hear my prayers..
i wanted to feel God's presence again

as we talk more.. i shared more.. and i guess God's presence was there..and somehow.
rocket encourage me... the one that really open my eyes and help me realise was that
"God is always there..He lives in everyone is just that you have to really focus on Him and he will talk to you"
and as i felt touch so much.cause i don't know some how during we were talking. i felt happy inside at the same time.. cause i know that change is here and it's the begining.and i felt to thankful

after that i did my quiet time and told God "lord thank you so much for sending someone to talk to me and influence me".... and as i continued praying.... i felt God told me
"eunice,i love you,don't give up"
and as i accepted that instantly i felt His presence in me again... i felt so happy=).
i got carried away till 3 am...and now i feel Him everywhere i go..

i love this feeling..=)addicted

badminton day

2009-05-30T08:54:00.000-07:00

okay... srry. was suppose to upload this yesterday but was tired... my legs and my abs hurts now.....*ouch..well. enjoy=)
hui thing and me take 1

hui thing and me take 2

yue terng and yi kai

the food we ate.=).

yi kai lazing around..=)

eat eat eat...

drink drink drink

ying sin=)

smiles=)

thsts all for now

nites.. i got to now ...=)

how should i start?.

2009-05-28T08:06:00.000-07:00

hmmm... okay... let's see.. im really happy today...did my quiet time happily... i think??..God talk to me?...i felt that he told me to continue praying... and do my quiet time with Him...cause im so close to breaking this freaking numbness i have for quite long alrdy...

i think change is coming... i can kind of feel it.and im really happy about... cause its for the better..=)..

okay.. besides my spiritual life with God..=)

Great news.. i got 92% for living skills.!.. yeah baby!!... iwas like yes,YES Lord, amen.... LOL...=)...
so... straight A's in my mid terms man... all thanks to God... really im serious... cause if not i wouldnt be able to concentrate in my revisions..and i wouldnt have remember all those facts that was stuffed into my brain if it wasnt for Him...=)>. so THANK YOU Lord!..

=)anyway... tomorrow would be going for badminton play time with my friends... cant wait. to lepak and cam whore with them... the sad thing is... baby yi han aint going..it's not the same without her.sigh... but me and ying sin will post up pictures for you aite?... and help me thank your mum for giving me a ride..=).. thank you..=).. love mwahs!